just got back from you guys!

i would say that it's been like ages 
since we last spend time together. threesome!


and last night was so much fun!
we headed to the nearest mcD
and we did had spend a good-old-time together!


hey, people!
i love you!!!

ilidayanaabdulhadi
muhdzulfikrikhamis


thanks boobies! [group hug]

love drunk.

love letter for the soulmates.

a post for the soulmates. i wrote this along my way to kedah. the people who were always there for me and for us!






baby, since kindergarten up until now. and counting! you'll always be my best buddy! right, besty? for years, i thank you for the love and friendship, mohd zulfikri!

ili. my little confused sister. my soulmates. and a bestfriend. we shared almost everything! either sad or happy, we always had each other. no matter how much we had this vows, still im letting you know ; i love you!

these people rock my world! with laughter, tears and other things related to life! 

mira, along! having you as a friend for years, it's been wonderful!

along mereng! and i like that! i enjoy everytime with you!

angah! no matter how screwed you are, or maybe how people views you. i am always glad to have you as a friend. you have taken a good care of me and you know i love you as much as you do!

piqa! i always wish that you were here!

havent had the time yet to meet you,

but i am f**king miss you babe!

dila. time is never enough to be spend with you.

but, i just want you to know that you're a great

person and thanks for being a friend!

rosz! my baby! the most
pampered among us all.
since your the baby, so i am
 treating youas a kid. always!
so sweetie, i love you!

ayoy! those were the days we shared everything!

thanks for acting like a big brother to me when

i didnt have one. no matter what happen,

 we stand for each other!

wan! despite the bad memories we left

behind, we had also created a lot of

happy moments together! i just know it

from the start, that we will be good friends!

arun. the calls. the care. and the friendship.

i always cheerish that. and you are a great friend!

budakbudak dorm who never grow-up! *i wish* haha!

2 years had been a long journey for me, knowing you guys.

a lot of things we had shared. and those were the best part!

mokgu. ejat, sorry. i know i had hurt you a lot. but, i think sometimes its for the best. you're like a brother to me and hopes it stays like that forever!

gemok! my little brother whom i shared a lot of things with! i know i can trust you, always!  i love spending time with you. fall or rise; you, ejat and me will always be a family.

the SYH series! gedik, no matter what happen. i will always love you, piggy! god knows how much! from the first semester of our life, we had swear that only death can keep us apart; and so it will! gee, you complete me!

husna! my montel! hee. hey, sometimes i find that i cant get along with you. but, who cares! nobody's perfect! best friends accept for whom they are. and im here to say that it's true! thats what keeps us alive!

the necklace. SYH forever!

bantal. papa dino, dont know how we get related and connect so fast. and cant even remember how we had come to this stage. but, thanks for having me around and you're my bestfriend!

hasz. babe, every moments with you and the dino's is priceless! i cant afford to forget one of those! hey, what ever happens. i hope you'll be the same person from my memory.  you're my sweetheart, jamboo!

dino's speels fun correctly!

and finally! he's the one! heee ;)
amirsheriff. even so we didn't know each other for a long time. but, learning to understand you is one of the best thing in my life! having you is something that i wouldn't ask for more. hee. and i just knew it, i love you and will always do! so, my dearie bunch2, also my personal trainer *currently*. hehe. you are apart of me now! so, we will never let those childish thoughts kills us! still, ilysm!

i love you gee!

my gee and her mr.right♥

my gee wrote this as a caption to the picture taken by her at our bestfriend's sister wedding. 

hey gee, i love you and i miss you!

terharu.

thanks puan delliya!

i miss my cupcake :(

cupcakes makes everything happen! i didn't eat it until day 3

and i love it!

and out of the blue, i think i already miss the person i called

my cupcake *secretly.hee*

(you mean the world.ily)

pergi.

pada esok hari. lebih kurang jam SEPULUH pagi, saya dan mama saya akan bertolak pulang ke ALOQ STAQ. ke rumah mama. sane ade tok, pak teh, lit, mak ngah, mummy dan adikadik gemuk dan cun saye! wah, rindu! sudah lebih 3bulan++ tak jenguk keadaan orangorang di sana.

so, saya memang selalunya akan korbankan seminggu atau lebih masamasa cuti. jadi rakanrakan, kita jumpe pada minggu seterusnya la ye! sememangnya saya juga rindu sangat kamu semua! *hugs*

orang yang saya maseh hutang untuk ketemu:

1. daily breeze walking with my sis, ilidayana
2. perjumpaan rindu bersama ilidayana and zulfikri*mohd baby* ;p
3. mahu jumpe piqa sebab sangat lama tak jumpa!
4. not to forget along mira, angah, rosz, dila, arun, wan, ayoy and amin!

keluarga di rumah:

sila berbaikbaik semasa saya di kampung. nanti saya pulang! saye pasti rindu rumah! harus! *pelukcium*

amirsheriff:

kasi luka you baik oke? hehe. gonna miss you dearie...! we'll meet soon! and i'll text you later!

iloveyou *hugs and kisses*

sekian, gedik saya habis di sini. (^.^)v

ALOQ STAQ, here i come babeyh!

vacation!

selepas berusaha ber-conference dengan
fatin aqilah, anis raihana and athirah hanafiah.
kami merasakan rindu sangat2 sebab dah lame gile xjumpe!
and most of all, we miss the time when we always ber-gossip at the back of the class
*since we were sitting at the back*

awww~ i just miss that part!
so, we decided to go for a trip! a vacation!
so, january! here we come! ;)


and plus!
sharifah nor baizura and adilah darmawi will be coming back to malaysia for holidays in june!
and so, we will meet!
me and beya are planning for us to go for vacation!
dorm mates! i miss you guys!
so, we'll be meeting aimi, faiqa, aten and zafa as well!
i miss you guys! i spend two years of my life living with them.
and, gotta tell you. it's one of the best part!

vacation babeh!
escapade!

we're still dating ;)

photoshoot at KLCC (^.^)v


sorry dearie, i just posted it on my blog. not facebook. hee ;p

alhamdulillah.

after so many days this things had haunted me.
i've been dreaming about this results thingies for 3days.
semua mimpi horror!

and today!
11th of december 2009
1:48 am

i've checked my results!
and it came out good.
even it's not GREAT.
but good seems okay to me!

full of gratitude.
i woke my mom to let her know.
and text amir bout it too.

i feel free! and cant stop smiling! ;)))
and i'm moving on! yeah!

831.

i know the remedy to get the feeling out of you is to share.
it's just that, i cant.
the things are way too complicated.

and so i called amir.
since he's now becoming apart of myself.
i hope he can handle me.

thanks dearie.
for being there.
even i just can open up only 10% out of all.
but, still. it feels better after sharing it.

hey mr bunc2, you know ilysm!
always! ;)

difficulities come and goes.

i had my up and downs in life.

and today.
my head was so full with questions and doubts.
i drove alone and went to the dentist.
and then i feel like going for a walk alone.
but, i cant find any will to do so.

home, i tripped, and broke my nail,
and my phone fell and broke,
i cant sleep, i cant eat, and i cant read!

arghh! life is hard. at times.
not blaming anyone. and i thought am strong being alone.

still, am not.
i even cant find any words to share it with people.
i cant open up. its too personal. its just ... me

try to be in my shoes.
a person who wanted to do free in life.
yet a first born child with brothers from two different world.
and a parents best friend. and some other stuff that i wasnt suppose to share.

it's okay.
i know am strong.
i've been here for 20years.
another 50years wont hurt me. insyaallah.

im still a little girl.

I miss abu. I miss wan.

At times like this, the most thing that i miss is wan and abu.

When i was little, no matter how i miss home. No matter how difficult the situation turns out,I feel save being there with my grandpa. I didn’t dream of being granpa’s favourite girl. I never dream of that at all, but i am very grateful to have him in my life. Having a grandpa that always there. I feel loved and I just feel... save. I know, wan’s love is not as great as mom and dad’s. But he still is someone that i really love. As much as my parents and my brothers.

People didn’t know how i really am being here without abu. The cat that ive been with for quite sometimes. I hate crying in front of people. I didn’t talk or look at other people when i cried. I didn’t even want to talk about that with anyone either. And i cried everytime because of some reasons that i, myself couldn’t handle it. But i don’t want my parents to know. I know, they had been content with what we had know. But abu was always there. When im sad, im happy or even when i just need someone or maybe something to be with me during my times. Hes always there. Comforting me. I miss my abu. I wish he was here.

Sometimes i cried in my sleep. How are they being somewhere that i didn’t know. Do they know how much i miss them? How much i need them? How much i wish they were here?

lately sudah busy.

i just notice.
am being a busy person since some week ago.

because of the exam thingies,
the submission thingies
and other stuff
like HOME stuff and SCHOOL stuff (assignments).

and as a result.
i am providing a small or maybe no time
to my friends and most of it MYSELF!

sorry to u bashira,
u have not given any attention by ur owner :(



and also,
amirsheriff of course!
he's busy. i'm busy.
and that wrap it all! haha
anyhow, i still love u for
any reason i can think of ;)


p/s : kalau rambut u panjang camtu kan best? hee :D






dear,
HUSNA, JAMBOO,
BANTAL and GEMOK.
i really miss spending
time with u guys
as a family! arghh!

nanti habis exam kite pergi berchanda ye?
saye rindu....

gambar kate : 1,2,3,4,5 .. ha, cukup 1 family! hee






and to BABY and ILI,
i miss u both DAMN much!
we'll jumpa for ili's birthday,
kay people!




gambar kate : one guy and 2 girls = threesome! haha xp

and also,
MIRA, ANGAH, ROSZ, PIQA, DILA,
IKHWAN, HARUN, AYOY and AMIN.

rindu lah! paham x? haha! sorry, and we'll make it up cuti nie eyh? banyak benda nak kene sort out! janji kite jumpe nanti. sorry again for being busy :(

gambar kate : semua kasi kaki sorang sebelah. same ngan gambar nie!

mood : missing everybody :(

i love you people.

this semester.
i would say that its not that good for me.

DESIGN.
had different in mind.

FAMILY.
it's a thing that i call, my life.
the truest me. ;)

LOVE.
a lot to learn and adapt.
but any how it goes, i still can find my way to love you!
and i dont need any reason for that!
*hugs*

FRIENDS.
i've lost some.
*or maybe one* :(
i've been blessed with a whole lotta LOVE!
the clicks from WANGSA.
the DINO'S family.
ASYNDETON of course.
and all those friends that i always love!

but somehow.
i remember.
few days back ago, i suddenly am shocked!
i had forgotten ROSZ birthday!
my dearly bestfriend!
SHIT! how can i let this thing happen!

I AM GUILTY!
no matter how ignorance i am toward days and dates and also handphone,
i still need to REMEMBER an important day like that.

i screwed myself up.
and i'm not happy.

walking through a journey called memory.

sweet!
double sweet!
triple sweet!

I LOST MY PEACE EDITION CONVERSE
the one that amir bought for me.

for days ive been worrying!
*sampai nak demam kot*

p/s: i mean, of course la worried. amir can keep the piece for years. and i just get it a month ago. and now, ive lost it! damn!


okay!
most of the people knows.
and thanks for your concern.
*iloveyou peeps!*

on the 3rd day of its lost.
i got a letter on my table.
SHIT! it's a prank!
$#^%$%&*%*%*&% (boleh xmencarut?)

and i screamed! and it is VERY VERY VERY loud!
and i cried. of relief, and some other silly reasons.
*malu oke?*
and so, they asked me to do silly things before they gave me my converse.

the first letter note that:
i need to bring a video with me. (and rakam every details along the way)
and i need a car - bantal's car la jawabnye! haha
*thx papa dino!*

1st stop : find another clue at mimi's room.

2nd stop : to sec.18's karaoke box. sing ROZANNA by search

p/s : i need to ask for the next clue at the counter and repeat the same thing for every clue forward. it's like an explore race! haha

3rd stop : isi minyak kereta for RM1 only! dkt shell sec.7

4th stop : go and drink milo at wak dol's kopitiam.

5th stop : monkey rack at sec 7. exercise!
*they know i cant! damn!*

6th stop : walk down the stairs from jamboo's house
with +- 3 inches HEELS!
and her house is at 4th floor!

7th stop : to the boat at sec 2. scream out loud :
"u jump, i jump, AMIR!"
*damn, malu! ramai plak org time tue*

8th stop : go to dataran shah alam.
lari2 kat sana sambil buat gaya kapal terbang.
*sumpah mcm org terencat!*

9th stop : go to secret recipies. collect my birthday cake there.

10th stop : they ask me to go back to the studio.
they had waited for me there!
*serious dah berkaca2 mata time nie. sweet la korang*


as i reached the studio. nak dpt converse balik?
MEMANG TAK!
they spare me with 2 keys. and i have to try it
at each of the lockers in the studio.
if it match, then i'll find my converse in it.
and the problem is,
there's more than 50 lockers in the studio. hairh!

after i got back my converse
(without anyone helping.
they just enjoy themselves looking at me. haha),
they asked me to drink TEH KUNDUR! yuks!
i feel like throwing up!!! yuks! yuks! and YUKS!

lastly, we celebrate my birthday
like a NORMAL people.
even it had been weeks ago. haha

*at the 2nd stop(i guess), i realise something.
and as i go through the treasure hunt game,
i reassured my tought.
it's like walking through a journey called memory.
every stop that they set, there's story behind it.
our memories lies there. forever!

awww, that is so sweet people!
to HUSNA (the mastermind),
JAMBOO (the deliver),
BANTAL (the driver)
and all those people involve as in
ASYNDETON!
that's YANIE, AFI, MIMI and semua! hahahaha

i heart you guys soooo much! like, seriously!
im touched. and love being in the twenties! haha

*the best birthday prank ever babe!*

tag someone!

1. Anda rasa anda hot?
some people kata hot is sexy. well, obviously am not! haha

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda.

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?

hari ini hari bahagia bersama mereka ;)

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza.

mase final crit. makan 2 slice kecik. xpuas!

5. Lagu terkahir yang anda dengar.

nymphytemine by cradle of filth

6. Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

facebook, dengar lagu at maximum volume.

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan panggilan apa?

bash.



8. Tag 6 orang.

1. adilah khairulsham

2.sharifah norbaizura

3. adilah darmawi

4 siti munirah

5. anis raihana

6. saramelia

9. Siapa no 1 pada anda?

kakak! haha. dila nie kawan baek kat dorm dulu (:

10. Orang no 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa2?

ade, tp xtersebar lg berita die. hahaha xp

11. Kata sesuatu berkenaan orang no 5.

share the same important name in our life. haha

12. Bagaimana pula dengan no 4?

suke bende2 comel. hee

13. Siapakah orang no 2?

juge kawan baek mase kat dorm dulu. sembang berjam2 ngan die selalu. haha

14. Pesanan kepada no 6.

i update blog letak name u! hee